2014.04.07

Well Well Well... It's another week... So how's everything going?

Hmm.. Not doing fine.. I still holding my egg this month?! Guess what.. this weekend I have roadshow.. So hopefully I can break egg this weekend or before this weekend? Hmm...

I heard that actually we have a program that collaborate with Bank Negara to go schools give Financial Talks.. Well! I think it's interesting actually.. but most of my colleagues or seniors like not really like it.. coz actually everyday the bank is damn busy! Who the hell free to give a talk? Me! Why not.. Damn free man me! Some more.. I'm Best Speaker! Best Presenter lea! (Okay~ I self trumpet myself again!!! Did I use the right words to describe?!)

Whatever...

Actually I think some of you might realized that I changed lately.. too stress? But the problem the stress actually come from? It's just myself stressing up only?

I not sure.. sometimes I might think that actually who am I? who I wanna become to? Or I just becoming a person that everyone that wish I am?

A Good son of my parents? Well~ I not a good son too...
A good person of most of seniors (Uncle & Aunty) ? Sorry.. I'm not that good too...
So how many of you know well of me? Even myself also don't ... do you?

Well.. even I also feel unknown and unfamiliar for my future now.. So what's I gonna do just Live like Today! Who care what's happen next? If I really can't survive in this industry.. just left... there's a place that belong to me.... I guess!

I always asked myself why I still single and actually do I have ideal type in my mind? or actually do I have any crush currently?

Okay~ Let's just being frank to speak... I don't think I have any ideal type and I might not ready to fall in love too! Well~ I have many of BEST Girl Friends! But doesn't mean that I really have crush on them! So far no... So I still understand well the different between Love and Friend!

Perhaps... Ms.Right just too faraway from me! Actually there are some girls that in my mind.. may be just a beautiful illusion! We are just too friend that makes some beautiful illusion and lie only~ After all... I realized the truth~ We are Friend! Not Lover too....

I think Love is a DAMN difficult topic ever! Well~ I just forget about it..

Working? STRESSS!
LIFE is EVEN MORE STRESSS!!!

any listener out there? Perhaps only my blog~ Thanks letting me post here everyday Dear!

Good Night World! See you Soon...

30.03.2014

2014.03.30 Sunday

今天是星期天，久违的去拜山~ 祭拜祖先... 我应该有三年没有去祖先坟前祭拜吧~ 毕竟过去三年的这段时间我都在Miri

因为这个清明，我这天缺席了普照寺的聚会... 但祭拜完毕后，看还有时间我还是去了一下.. 感觉缺席了丢下何Senior好像有点不好意思...

结果其实我去也被老师们安慰和开导... 毕竟如果没有了这些安慰和开导的话，我可能会继续有很多负能量在身上... Uncle 毕竟做Sales那么多年了.. 给了我少少意见... 他说万事起头难... 挨过了就是另一个春天... 希望承他贵言了...

而老师呢.. 却说压力肯定有的! 试想想我领如此高薪，多多少少有一定的责任和难度的~ 她只告诉我尽力就好，东家不打就打西家吧...

再遇上朋友她妈.. Aunty 也顺便关心我的近况... 通常我都已经问完uncle aunty老师们要不要投资了... 只是现在投资世道不好.. 不是说投资就投资的....

但有时候还真的需要感谢以上这些贵人相助!!! 有了贵人的扶持和鼓励.. 剩下只能靠自己了! 毕竟我清楚知道我自己还没尽力!!!

最近负能量真的很负面，所以慢慢有些朋友没有再找了... 尤其那些明明过着幸福甜蜜日子的朋友们... 他们没找你，也不要去找别人和影响他人情绪吧... 有时候我慢慢开始发现，有时候想找人呻... 但才发现没有... 也可能不像打扰别人... 再不然有时候他们真的问你最近怎样的时候，你就很自然答“我很好!!!”

多么善意的谎言!!!

慢慢开始了一个人的生活... 不是每个朋友都得闲... 有时候不知道能够找谁... 想看电影? 想运动? 想做些什么都好.... 渐渐变得很一个人... 有点孤独! 但以前的我是这样过来的... 怪咖! 没问题的...

最近... 我看到一个奇怪的缘分...
我连续三天遇见一个这样的她... 好吧! 有点被吸引到了...
可她就是一个Stranger...Beautiful Stranger...

真会为自己打歌!!!

最近有些朋友都拍拖了.. HAHA!!! 真开心和幸福...
羡慕吗? 浪子偶尔也会羡慕的... 只是还没遇到我能让她幸福的她.. 再加上我不也不想去害和伤人...

有些朋友... 以前多好都好... 一旦拍拖了..开始要保持距离了! 尤其是女性朋友... Well! I must said that 我有很多很要好的女性朋友...XD~ 我就不想被人说我破坏别人的感情... 所以保持点距离就好了...

工作有压力... 生活有压力... 可我能怎样?
Well.. If It Doesn't Kill You! It's Just Makes You Stronger! 我还生存!!!

郑重向全体和全部最近我给黑脸大家看的朋友道歉
最近或许负能量多的我.. 脸或许有点黑! 如有得罪的地方~ 抱歉!!!

28/03/2014

Actually now is the midnight of 29/03...
why still awake at this hour? TGIF.. Tomorrow is Saturday~ no work~ off day! so still can play till this late night...

I wonder still have how many of us.. I mean my friends are bloggers again?! I mean last time it's quite a trend everyone have blog and post everyday! But now.. It's seem the trend is over! What's reason I still keep blogging? Just to type.. LOL!

Today actually consider a okay okay day?! AIA staff, Jacky and Annie came Tawau for day trip and visit. They actually very good, friendly and supportive! When I really feel lost, wanna give up, they just like a guardian angel suddenly lend on their hand for me...

Of coz I really got stress by my MR. Everyday ask me about sales.. actually another stress is whenever I saw my training budddy keep close case, then MR will compare me with him edy?! I feel proud of YK actually.. and I actually really don't care the monthly sales target.. but keep pushing and rushing by MR! the Management! Even my branch seniors sometimes will PUSH me too!!!

Actually there's lot way and method to sell.. then today I taught by Jacky and realized another methods that can be used to sell... Well! Gonna try the method and start next month... XD...

Annie actually is really a good LASSE to me! She's more than a supervisor to me.. like a friend really sometimes although we just know each other this month. I had told her that about my resignation.. I didnt mention I really want resign but I said what if... surprisingly she said of coz she doesnt want me to resign but in deep her heart she hope that I really enjoy and happy with work if I change work.

Well~ although I got heard some places might have recruitment too.. but somehow why not I give myself really 6 months first! I believe I have interest on UT lea.. I wanna sell UT in future too! But I might face competition and direct conflict with my senior edy! Well.. In real world.. I have to be somehow a Materialistic person! I gonna gone bad soonnnnnnn I guessssss....

Today I met my lovely English teacher, Mdm Winnie at branch~ She wanna ask something regarding dunno what la.. she looks for my senior (I guess she is my senior regular customer)~ What really surprise and shocked me, she spoke really fluent Cantonese and Hakka!!! I actually never thought that can be that fluent.. I knew she understand Hakka but not Cantonese one.. So I direct ask her so last time during tutition you actually understood what we joking around with cantonese?! HAHA.. She said yes! XD I still explained her that 'PoKai' mean Handsome that time! How embrassssinggggggggg is it........

Well... let's just call it a day! Good Night World! =D

26.03.2014

yoyo~ 我又回来了! 这次以中文来写post!

慢慢开始适应工作环境? 比起以前的生疏，开始有些不错的同事~ 当然工作依然是那么差?! 没什么成绩~ 注定要被骂?

我在想我可以顶住这些每天的责骂多久呢? 到底是我脾气好呢还是我根本不在乎? 任由MR骂吧 ~ 怎么说我还是拿够6个薪水，到时候不要我，我不就东家不打，打西家! 但我相信我的能力~ 只是只剩什么问题呢? 保险难卖~ 顾客难做!!!!

其实我觉得有点压力! 压力在于其实我父母和很多长辈都很高兴我有这份工作! 万一如果这个时候的我辞职的话? 我不就让他们失望了吗? 

那其实我自己应该他妈为自己着想还是为他人而做个他们理想中的我?

某程度我没有不喜欢我现在的工作.. 可我觉得有点孤掌难鸣~ 或许刚开始而已.. 慢慢会好起来的! 就像上次在岛工作的我一样... 慢慢一切会好起来的!!! 希望我可以快点那到customer list好让我打电话... 若持续要我target walk in customer! 我只能告诉你我会天天吃鸡蛋!!!

不懂是不是因为月尾了.. 所以bank现在每天都没什么客~ 都不知道对我来说是好事或坏事?! 好事.. 不用一直被Senior问做么不去做market survey! 坏事就我怎么可以close case呢?

今天的我向UT Senior指教一下关于UT 的东西! UT = Unit Trust! Kind of Investment! 哈哈~ 人生到了某个阶段总会开始做点那时期该做的事情! 是时候投资了... 看来看去可能会投资一个Balanced Fund 和Equity Fund! 一个稳定，一个高回报! 绝对可以投资到点钱 ....

人不为己 天诛地灭

现实社会就是如此的残酷!!! 我记得我老师忠告过我，提方小人，也小心自己变坏...

所以我应该变坏来适应这社会，还是我离开这残酷的社会?

人就不能简简单单吗?

‘大学是梦想的坟墓’

这句话，我曾那么说过...

我为何读BA? 因为我不想读Account.. 简单的理由... 

所以其实我的兴趣在哪里 ?

PR? Event? Marketing? Sales? Admin? HR? Finance?

死不死~ 我什么都有兴趣可没有一个是我专长! 我觉得我很失败... even我是个Degree生我都觉得失败... 因为我有个Cert却对未来还不明确?!

我其实很羡慕我弟弟! 因为他有梦想... 他明白清楚自己想要什么... 而我这个哥哥看似读书比弟弟厉害.. 成就比弟弟厉害... 但其实一点都不厉害... 因为得到的不是想要的??? 我不知道想要什么... 其实我就像咸鱼般的失败~

其实我到底要为谁而活? 我到底要做个怎样的我?

是大家心目中的我吗? 还是我自己的我?

为何我不能像个正常的射手般做自己想要的

为何我要去顾虑别人的感受呢?

其实我是个射手 热爱自由的射手

所以我不太相信爱情

尤其经历过爱情后

其实我不乏绯闻女友 有时候我不去解释是因为解释了也没用

再不然就是自己多少可能有点喜欢别人

但我觉得浪子终究还是会流浪...

我不打扰别人 或许对方知道我可能喜欢她

我们之间开始有距离

所以我又一次的搞砸了...

从头到尾我没有告白过

但我又再一次做懦夫逃避吧 反正我们之间暂时有个距离比较好

或许以前的我表错情了

我不应该在你伤心难过的时候去安慰你

我不应该在你告诉我你分手后我有一丝心动想追你

我应该清楚知道我们的距离!

原来当两个很要好的朋友一旦知道对方喜欢对方后

彼此关系从此就变了

但我庆幸的是

你身边有个你喜欢他，他也喜欢你的他

还有一群好朋友陪你

浪子其实出了名花心又是个坏人

坏人就不要去伤人心 做个浪子好好流浪

2014-03-23

So it's been a while that I back to blogger life who update blog regularly! Well~ sometime it's because really something happened that could makes me gone crazy! Well.. could be explained by part! I guess

Sometimes posting at blog is really good methods to de-stress or to express some my inner emotion that you don't wanna show to others! Lately I had become more bad-tempered! But it because I chosen to be that!

Well~ It' just two months! I started have a mind.. have a plan that to resign?! WTF!? Why so fast? It's really STRESSS! I have to admit that I kind of person that can't work under stress?! Yes I am!!! Don't ever try to rush me or force me everyday regarding my sales?! And Please don't ever compare me with others!!! If I really fed up I will fed up with my work too!!!!!

Sometimes I think that I not a good student.. not a good person.. not a good workers... I can't handle and adapt in that kind of environment! Which is my problem and I can't blame anyone! I not good one! So I consider to change job also! but what if I change to a job that I also don't like also stress with work?! What if.... There's so many WHAT IF in this world!!!

Either I will stay last for 6 months and might be unhappy and will always get scold by supervisor every time for the 6 months?! How long can I stand for???

I wish that I could speak to someone about my thingy?! But who to?
My parents? They happy that I worked in bank.. that's really make them proud of! So if I resigned I will let them disappoint...
My friends? which friends? Many of you just said that I can do it! I not sure this really a kind of motivation or what~ But actually do I really suit it?

Frankly speaking, I do interest in sales! But the product now I currently promote and sell is damn fucking difficult to do sales what!!!! Well~ "Nothing is Impossible! Nothing is Difficult?!" right? Yea! I know some of you might say this to me! Okay~ I suck! I fed up! I done with it! I face difficulty!!! So how? I not good in doing sales? Should I really go for another job? Also Sales and have target as well? Damn...

That's all about my job!

Regarding to my family~ sometime will get tired with just some small matters! Sometime my mood my temper gone bad easily may be just really a small matter! I don't know why~  Sometime I didn't think much as they are my family!! That's life man! Nothing better than family one! So just get along with them~ Even tired I still have to move on....

But what most tiring and difficult moment that I currently facing is my relationship...

Well well well... so do I have a girlfriend? Nope.. so what's my problem? Actually the situation is almost like broke up! I think I have stay a distance with her! I duno why~ I not sure she knew it or not! I think she knew it~ Well! I'm coward so I runaway okay!

I think I can't treat her like last time how I treat her! She prefer a HIM but not me anymore! And I always just a friend to her only! May be not even a best friend also. Better stay away from her.. it's good that to makes her to hate me? So I pretend that I to be a bad guy??

Whatever~ I a flower-hearted man too! Soon I will forget her and get another one! haha...

Okay! I can't be that optimistic that! I mean I can't stand so.. I should stop this topic and stop thinking about her! That's it!!! Time will dilute everything!!!

Emotional me and Realistic World

I had worked for almost two months including I went to training and meeting and sitting at branch doing nothing. So here's the problem: Do I have passion on this work?

Actually I do have passion! when I training at KL~ I always motivated and believe I can do my best! But some how in fact, in reality I not! I so demotivated and discourage from the work! I not sure what the real reason, perhaps the environment? Not saying that my colleagues is not friendly enough, but not that close too! perhaps one of the factors too!

Some more ! I think this might be the MAIN FACTOR!!! Beside target for Banca (which is my insurance products that I selling), I have target for open account, cards and FD and so on! I was like haihhhhhhh~ Not saying that I don't want to hit the target and do so! Just I think a bit stress!

Besides, some of my colleagues that same batch with me at diff branches right, some of them thinking to resign?! OMG~ and they same as me also demotivated and discourage from their work?! I can't said that I have not affected by them! Some how it did affect me! Emotional affected! I always tell myself that give myself 6 months for probation! After that if the PB wanna fire me then that's my destiny!!!

Actually what kind of work? what kind of field that I suit to?

I thought sales? But banking may be not really suit me? The only good things of Bank just HIGH SALARY!!! I always thought that I not a materialistic person but I end up lured by money too! Although Banking is my second choice but I think really not suit for me...

Last week I went to KK for sales meeting! So I had met up with my AIA LASSE! So just random met up and some chit chat! So she ask me that 'Do you ever think of your dream?' Oh yeah! I think this question I had been asked by many people edy! So actually what is my dream?

Some of you might said that actually my dream is to be an artist or singer or composer as long as music industry?! But is it really my dream? Or I think this dream is so unrealistic to me so I runaway from it??? I not sure about it!

But I remember that I watched a HK movie - 'DIVA'~ Joey had say so in the movie "I like to sing! So whenever I want to sing then sing, don't feel like to sing then not! But artist not! even you don't feel like to sing you still have to sing!' Singer is an occupation! Singing is a daily life routine! XD... 

Whatever! I will give me 6 months time to stay with PB! after that then see how~ I will keep looking any job vacancy available out there too! Especially for admin or marketing or PR or R&D la! XD

so emotional me! but why? Physically and mentally exhausted! but why????

I think I'm not a good guy! I'm not a good partner! I'm not a good boyfriend! So I better don't mess up with people life! 

我的感情世界..

7年过去了.. 

我和她也分手了7年了

而我们变成最熟悉的陌生人

她现在尽然成为人妻了

而我? 还是一个人... 怎么了?

这几年陆续陆续其实不是没有对象...
但其实到底我自己心里的那杯咖啡是怎样的?
所以我已不清楚我自己所谓的理想型是怎样...

谢谢那么多年来我身边朋友对我的关心
甚至过分到怀疑我是否gay?!
你们想太多了~ 我是直的!!!

其实没有什么放不放下的
毕竟分手后我们没有联络了
她也贵为人妇
我也给了她祝福

但为何我还是一个人? 我条件太高?
我哪里可以跟人家说条件
我不见得好到哪里去

在她过后有多少个她?
其实我也不清楚

其实感情最危险的是Friendzone
但我却常常觉得我必须要了解了对方才能一起
但却又有人说不要太了解.. 因为会因了解而分开

前阵子 我说我失恋了?!
其实没有恋到.. 但却有像失恋般的难过...

就是我喜欢她 而她喜欢他 他们看起来很般配
我想祝福他们 因为我不知道如何是好

我不确定到底她是否知道我喜欢她
若是不知道就算了吧 我可以继续已朋友呆在她身边
若是知道 那她没拆穿我底牌是因为她不想失去我这朋友吧

恋人未满 友达以上

我觉得以前的我们的确很难不让别人怀疑我们的关系
但现在或许不同了

或许顺气自然
随缘吧
无论她知道与否

Welcome to the Battlefield

2014.03.09 Sunny Afternoon and I inside my room...

Today is such a sunny Sunday. Woke up this morning and went to Pzs for giving talk?! Lecture?! I was thinking am I too serious or too strict on them?! Well~ If really wanna learn something, this shit gonna be serious! But I don't think they understand so... I trying my best to help! May be I like doing such job also...

Well! Malaysia going through a hard time now~ It's really many unfortunate events happened around us. I wonder why the plane will lost contact?! Pray hardly for the plane! I hope really got an official news from the Government and MAS airline.

This post not going just talk about that! Well~ I just back from KL which I had went there for training for two weeks! At the beginning, everything is fresh, strange, awkward and some of scary and uncomfortable! Well~ when time goes by, everything going smooth and more than that! I really met a bunch of crazy and good friends! Sometimes people might said that never believe there is true friendship with your colleagues or in this realistic world! Well~ it's depend! At least all of us not in same branch, we have no direct competition! So we are close enough to get along with each other!

Over two weeks at KL, I had attended many courses, classes and even exam! So I had passed my exam and I ready to get my Insurance code so that I can start sell insurance! Feel so motivated when I training at KL, but after I back to my branch, I actually didn't feel any motivated! I feel so discourage out of sudden! Not sure why~ It's hard to get sales or what? I not that kind of person that scare to approach people and talk~ perhaps what I scare is being reject?! Yea~ I should admit it! Same goes to my relationship~ I scare being reject too! So I remain silent all time~

Tomorrow gonna be the second week of the month~ I have to close at least 2-3 cases for next week. Hope that I can get so! Argh~ Now really understand why so stress to work in Bank edy.

After I back from KL then I realized there is no much friendsssss at Tawau anymore. It's seem all of them go back to study edy! I miss some of them! I miss the life in Miri! I miss life being a student! I prefer stress with my study rather than my work?! ottokeeeeek!!!!!!

I need some talk... perhaps when u reading this post, please don't call me, whatsapp me, fb me or text me or what to talk with me! Perhaps~ I will just talk with selective friends! I mean I have problem! haih...

I should said that, it's really a long time that I don't know how to express my feel... it's really a long time that I don't know how to confess?! I mean It's been a while... Well! I not a perfect guy~ Perhaps I not suit her! So just let it the situation remain the same! But I always wondering... did she realized before? did she knew that? did she really don't know that actually I..........

Whatever! As I'm a bird without legs~ I'm Sagittarius who want freedom! I will fly over the sky just wait someday I will land on some place?! Yet I have not found the place yet... Perhaps she is~ Perhaps she not too! Who knows! But I think the most important she found her happiness~ I will try my best to get the best happiness for her?! Bad Good Guy （滥好人)!!!!

Some of you might knew what my problem, some of you might don't know! For those don't know please dont ask me why and who is she! For those knew it, really a few of you! Really because that moment I really felt so depressed and I really need someone to talk and I really trust that you guys are the one that I can trusted on! HAHA

Whatever~ What most important now is my career?! Or else after 6 months I gonna looks for new job edy! XD

Well~ That's all about for today post! Too much english words! Bad Grammar! Suck English post ever!
By the way~ Really emo! My laptop don't know become how edy! Need to check with the shop again!

New Chapter Begin

2014.02.16 Rainy...

Well~ It's another English post?! Why? My laptop have not fix yet! Haih.. more and more emo stuff going around me~

'Hi, I'm Erdnest Shim and I the new FE(Financial Executives) here. I consider a fresh graduate with 5 months working in Pom Pom Island~' (Which I found is so irrelevant with my current job! So consider I fresh Graduate) After the introduction, sounds like everyone have some little interest on me?! Please don't ask me about the incident?! Well, they will! and I have to answer again and again and again! Well~ didnt get annoy with it la just hmmmm.... okay barh!

What surprise me is the first day, had at least 3 person asked me that whether I work as singer or whatever pub singer so on?! 3 of them said that had watched my YouTube's videos?! And my Direct Supervisor from KK praised that my good voice?! Well~ I guess he wont encourage me to go for audition and left this banking job?!

After interview from KK, I think they had go through my many personal details no matter through any ways?! Google it? May be I should try google my name and let's see what's the result?! XD

Basically, I'm a Financial Executives who focus on Insurance (*Perhaps I started have more interest on Unit Trust), I have to promote and sell the financial product which is Insurance to Public Bank Customer! Hmmm... but I have no insurance agent code yet?! Which mean I have to attend course and go through training and attend exam to certify as a Insurer to do sales?!

So what I doing in bank?! You guys couldn't believe that every day I go there just sit from 0830 till 0530 and noon have 1 hour lunchbreak?! Hmmm... sometimes facing the computer read some rules and regulations and some policies and some thing regarding the PBB?! Sometimes I go the counter help to click the number for customer?! what else? I don't think I have any other job edy....
That's all!!! How I spent for the past 5 days!!!! How easy for me to earn the salary for February! WAHAHAHA

Well, Luckily just one week! I had assigned to go KL for attend training course tomorrow!!! So I only sat in branch for 5 days and I will be flying to KL tomorrow for two weeks?!?!?!?!? Should be a Good NEWS?!?!?!? At Least it's a little escape from this little town!!!!! Just get a little getaway barh! I have some emotional not good...

That's All for today post then! I not sure can I update when I at KL?! Hmmm...

*By the way... Fairy Tales Love Story is so unrealistic for me to believe true love! I must be had hurt by you this SPECIAL GIRL so much!!! (Well~ I will continue the story next time... hmmm......)

Good Night Guysss!!!

Once again.. Jobless period...

2014.02.09 Cloudy Day...

So I think I should update some news to my blog before I start my new job tomorrow! XD Okay! I gonna work as Senior Financial Executives Trainee in Tawau Branch Public Bank.

So, before I should talk about and continue from previous post...(by the way, why I type in English?!?!? My laptop gg edy.. So using mama's desktop.. haih..)

So I quit my job from island during mid of December, around 15th, I went back to Tawau for a 5 days off. However, just the next day when I at Tawau, I heard a rumor saying that Philippines Pirates - Abu Sayaff is going to Sabah and most probaly Semporna's area islands!??!?!!? How scary is it.. everyone is shocking and I'm the one who really grateful that I had away from island.....

My parents once tried to stop  me back to island work again. Suppose my resignation date is 1st of January 2014. So I should follow the formal procedure stay until the year end. However due to the rumor, I had to resign immediately, I email to Boss and of coz Asst. Manager Ms. Chiemi san about I not going back. I not sure how Boss react and actually I quite sorry to him as well, he didn't reply the email but Ms.Chiemi san did. She even replied on my birthday and greet me Happy Birthday. T.T

The decision is simple! All Chinese Staff in island are going to resign all... just the matter of who leave first. So I become the first one......

So... Once again here am I the Jobless period again.....

During the jobless period, actually I quite frustrating everyday. Plus, I have some personal issue with me! (Shhh... I might going to talk about this in another post...Well~ It's hard to tell you guys that my heart broke T.T) So.. I sending my resume everywhere like Public Bank, RHB Bank, Standard Chartered Bank and even my parent, parent's friends, friend's parents and uncles aunties all quite friendly and helpful enough to help me looks job around and intro for me. I feeling grateful and thankful to them especially when I really feeling down in that period.

So after New Year, early of Jan I received call from Public Bank!!! FINALLY!!! So they asked me to go KK for interview. Overall, all is going smooth, interview, medical check up and everything is fine. So here I got the offer to work in Tawau Branch Public Bank as Senior Financial Executives Train, selling insurance?! OMG~ Well! It's better than I still jobless... Just try my best to work hard on it.

FIGHTING!!!!
FIGHTING! for all my friends who also start work already or soon or later with me together in this period!
FIGHTING! for all my friends, uncles & aunties have a great year ahead with theirs job or business this year.
FIGHTING! for all my friends who continue to study have a good year and result!

Well.. Let's end here today!

工作篇

2014年二月四日 陰

Bitchesss! I'm Back!!! 久違的部落小天地~ 可我怎麽這麽懶惰呢?
沒時間? 沒心情? 什麽都好~ 不要荒廢我這部落小天地~

上篇說到....失業 和待業的日子... 我的天啊! 有夠久的~
我在島上的日子其實過得蠻好... 剛開始我是那麽想的... 至少陽光與海灘... 愉快又輕鬆~ 剛開始是覺得自己可能堅持不久的~ 或許可能是人生地不熟的關係吧! 沒關係吧~

久而久之，你發現原來有工作的壓力~ 這壓力比讀書時大!!! 我從來沒有感受如此大的壓力!!! 慢慢地你發現，你做的分量和你獲得有點出入的時候，你非常的dulan! 但我覺得新人就是要不斷努力嘗試，甚至我告訴我自己：
“今天我的付出是爲了更好的未來~”
所以我不斷的努力和付出，甚至我得到上司和老闆的認可... (Y)

但有一點，有個疑問出現了...
“你就讀工商管理，你在島上有什麽作爲？” “你覺得你做了那麽久， 你學到了什麽? ”
魚不過塘不會肥!!! 這是我島上Senior告訴我的... 我有時候我在想...
“我到底純粹喜歡陽光與海灘的生活而已，還是我有沒有喜歡過我工作? 或許純粹的喜歡環境但不是工作而已? ”

在我煩惱這一切的同時，更煩惱的事來了... 有讀新聞的朋友都知道我島上發生槍殺案?!?!?! 看來我這23年真沒白活~! 怎麽可以握那麽“幸運”在我工作地方遇到這樣的事情?! 坦白說，有誰會不怕這樣的事情!!!! 我他媽想離開~ 但也不想失去這工作!!!

我第一次經歷金錢與安全之間鬥爭! 一個瀟灑的男人最後盡然對金錢的誘惑有了很大興趣??? 所以最後的我仍然選擇做瀟灑的男人! 那金錢對我起不了什麽作用，而一直讓我想留下的原因盡然是我不想在旅館需要我的時候我盡然選擇離他們而去... 但有位我的同事告訴我，不要把自己想得那麽偉大?! 離開吧~ 想走就走，不要拖拖拉拉! 不然最後很可能會留下來~

但左右我離開的最大功臣當然是我父母! 我只能說“父命難違!”

所以我在12月中正式離開的Pom Pom島! 現在有繼續失業的日子~
不失業，你真不知道馬來西亞失業率真的很高! XD

我暫時update到這裡! 明天請早! 部落就是要一篇一篇這樣update 的!