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2014.03.09 Sunny Afternoon and I inside my room...

Today is such a sunny Sunday. Woke up this morning and went to Pzs for giving talk?! Lecture?! I was thinking am I too serious or too strict on them?! Well~ If really wanna learn something, this shit gonna be serious! But I don't think they understand so... I trying my best to help! May be I like doing such job also...

Well! Malaysia going through a hard time now~ It's really many unfortunate events happened around us. I wonder why the plane will lost contact?! Pray hardly for the plane! I hope really got an official news from the Government and MAS airline.

This post not going just talk about that! Well~ I just back from KL which I had went there for training for two weeks! At the beginning, everything is fresh, strange, awkward and some of scary and uncomfortable! Well~ when time goes by, everything going smooth and more than that! I really met a bunch of crazy and good friends! Sometimes people might said that never believe there is true friendship with your colleagues or in this realistic world! Well~ it's depend! At least all of us not in same branch, we have no direct competition! So we are close enough to get along with each other!

Over two weeks at KL, I had attended many courses, classes and even exam! So I had passed my exam and I ready to get my Insurance code so that I can start sell insurance! Feel so motivated when I training at KL, but after I back to my branch, I actually didn't feel any motivated! I feel so discourage out of sudden! Not sure why~ It's hard to get sales or what? I not that kind of person that scare to approach people and talk~ perhaps what I scare is being reject?! Yea~ I should admit it! Same goes to my relationship~ I scare being reject too! So I remain silent all time~

Tomorrow gonna be the second week of the month~ I have to close at least 2-3 cases for next week. Hope that I can get so! Argh~ Now really understand why so stress to work in Bank edy.

After I back from KL then I realized there is no much friendsssss at Tawau anymore. It's seem all of them go back to study edy! I miss some of them! I miss the life in Miri! I miss life being a student! I prefer stress with my study rather than my work?! ottokeeeeek!!!!!!

I need some talk... perhaps when u reading this post, please don't call me, whatsapp me, fb me or text me or what to talk with me! Perhaps~ I will just talk with selective friends! I mean I have problem! haih...

I should said that, it's really a long time that I don't know how to express my feel... it's really a long time that I don't know how to confess?! I mean It's been a while... Well! I not a perfect guy~ Perhaps I not suit her! So just let it the situation remain the same! But I always wondering... did she realized before? did she knew that? did she really don't know that actually I..........

Whatever! As I'm a bird without legs~ I'm Sagittarius who want freedom! I will fly over the sky just wait someday I will land on some place?! Yet I have not found the place yet... Perhaps she is~ Perhaps she not too! Who knows! But I think the most important she found her happiness~ I will try my best to get the best happiness for her?! Bad Good Guy （滥好人)!!!!

Some of you might knew what my problem, some of you might don't know! For those don't know please dont ask me why and who is she! For those knew it, really a few of you! Really because that moment I really felt so depressed and I really need someone to talk and I really trust that you guys are the one that I can trusted on! HAHA

Whatever~ What most important now is my career?! Or else after 6 months I gonna looks for new job edy! XD

Well~ That's all about for today post! Too much english words! Bad Grammar! Suck English post ever!
By the way~ Really emo! My laptop don't know become how edy! Need to check with the shop again!