2014-03-23

So it's been a while that I back to blogger life who update blog regularly! Well~ sometime it's because really something happened that could makes me gone crazy! Well.. could be explained by part! I guess

Sometimes posting at blog is really good methods to de-stress or to express some my inner emotion that you don't wanna show to others! Lately I had become more bad-tempered! But it because I chosen to be that!

Well~ It' just two months! I started have a mind.. have a plan that to resign?! WTF!? Why so fast? It's really STRESSS! I have to admit that I kind of person that can't work under stress?! Yes I am!!! Don't ever try to rush me or force me everyday regarding my sales?! And Please don't ever compare me with others!!! If I really fed up I will fed up with my work too!!!!!

Sometimes I think that I not a good student.. not a good person.. not a good workers... I can't handle and adapt in that kind of environment! Which is my problem and I can't blame anyone! I not good one! So I consider to change job also! but what if I change to a job that I also don't like also stress with work?! What if.... There's so many WHAT IF in this world!!!

Either I will stay last for 6 months and might be unhappy and will always get scold by supervisor every time for the 6 months?! How long can I stand for???

I wish that I could speak to someone about my thingy?! But who to?
My parents? They happy that I worked in bank.. that's really make them proud of! So if I resigned I will let them disappoint...
My friends? which friends? Many of you just said that I can do it! I not sure this really a kind of motivation or what~ But actually do I really suit it?

Frankly speaking, I do interest in sales! But the product now I currently promote and sell is damn fucking difficult to do sales what!!!! Well~ "Nothing is Impossible! Nothing is Difficult?!" right? Yea! I know some of you might say this to me! Okay~ I suck! I fed up! I done with it! I face difficulty!!! So how? I not good in doing sales? Should I really go for another job? Also Sales and have target as well? Damn...

That's all about my job!

Regarding to my family~ sometime will get tired with just some small matters! Sometime my mood my temper gone bad easily may be just really a small matter! I don't know why~  Sometime I didn't think much as they are my family!! That's life man! Nothing better than family one! So just get along with them~ Even tired I still have to move on....

But what most tiring and difficult moment that I currently facing is my relationship...

Well well well... so do I have a girlfriend? Nope.. so what's my problem? Actually the situation is almost like broke up! I think I have stay a distance with her! I duno why~ I not sure she knew it or not! I think she knew it~ Well! I'm coward so I runaway okay!

I think I can't treat her like last time how I treat her! She prefer a HIM but not me anymore! And I always just a friend to her only! May be not even a best friend also. Better stay away from her.. it's good that to makes her to hate me? So I pretend that I to be a bad guy??

Whatever~ I a flower-hearted man too! Soon I will forget her and get another one! haha...

Okay! I can't be that optimistic that! I mean I can't stand so.. I should stop this topic and stop thinking about her! That's it!!! Time will dilute everything!!!